COMMITTMENT
Some days it’s harder than others to create. When the mind is busy, filled with angst, worry, overthinking and analysing, it is very easy to get lost in this cycle. It is very easy to get consumed by it and become it.
Some days, takes more work than others, to clean the mind, to find discernment between what is real and what is unreal.
Today has been one of those days for me. Today, I went from having all this power, doing a strong practice, cleaning the house, dancing, to completely deflated, no energy, and uninspired and yet I had this deadline to be doing at least a couple of hours of work today and nothing was motivating me to do that. I tried to sit down and do my content writing but that too was not working. I tried to read ancient yogic scriptures to help me shift the mindset but that also wasn’t working. I tried to focus on things that bring me to the truth of who I am, this Divine Essence, but the mind was strong.
The mind wanted me to continue to focus on how I was lacking in life, no boyfriend, no children, starting my coaching business not really sure where it will go, I’d also was not at the weight where I feel good in the body, so that was also bringing the mood down.
The mind was having a field day with this. This is the perfect concoction for it to start losing it and spiralling into stagnation, lack, scarcity and insecurity.
Then thankfully, I was on Facebook, and chose intuitively to watch my friends YouTube video of his journeys through Asia. It was exactly what I needed. His journey was so random, abundant, grateful and inspiring. His level of gratitude, contentment, appreciation and ability to flow with life, was what brought me to be able to sit down and write this blog. He helped ignite in me the flame of passion, fulfilment and joy. He helped me remember that life is what we make of it and that I have a choice. I can continue to sit and allow the stories of the mind, beat me down and bring me to the mindset, that I am all too familiar with, or I can choose to take another path and allow his video, to inspire and uplift me. Remembering that anything is possible and that we must have unwavering trust and faith in our hearts. In our truth. That we are being guided to exactly where we are meant to be and that whatever we are doing right now, wherever we are at, is exactly where we are meant to be.
Comparing, ourselves to others, doesn’t serve anyone. It only serves the mind, the ego, the small self, to keep ourselves small and hidden. It doesn’t allow our true essence nature to be seen. To shine. Instead, it keeps us repeating the same cycles we may have been taking for many lifetimes now, it doesn’t help us rise to the truth of who we are. It keeps us small.
So today, thankfully to my beautiful and dear friend, who bared his soul and truth in his YouTube video, helped inspire me to do the same. To not compare myself to others, fearing that I am not enough because I don’t yet seem to have all that others do, or that I may never have the things that I truly desire, a boyfriend, family of my own, to not let the mind go down this spiral and to see it as just that. It is a pattern, a mindset, an old program. That is all, and the program can be changed and at any point in time. We must decide and commit. Commit to ourselves. To the truth. To our heart. Commit to living a life in truth. In true alignment to the soul and be unabashedly guided by this love.